Today I wore a dress that I haven’t worn in almost two years. It felt good— the distantly familiar fabric against my skin and the swing of its hem against my knees. I ALMOST didn’t wear Spanx underneath (but in the end, I did).
I’ve lost 20+ pounds from my starting weight with Nutrisystem and I am seeing the light. I am packing up clothes in boxes that I will only need if we decide to have another kid ever. I am unpacking clothes that smell a little musty because they have not been worn in years.
The thing about losing weight after a baby is this: you have to give yourself grace.
(And remember—it’s not a race!)
You have to realize that even though you may reach your pre-baby weight (I’m about where I was when I got pregnant with Quin), you may not fit into those pre-baby jeans. You may have looseness where you once were firm. A roundness where you were once flat, or even a loss of what was once full. All women carry pregnancy differently. Losing the weight and settling into your new body carries differently as well.
Part of this is simply hard work: eating well and exercising. Part of this is genetics: some people have to worry less about eating well and exercising. You know some of those people or might BE one of them. Your non-maternity jeans in a normal size might have fit that first month or as you left the hospital (true story, just not for me). But in talking to some of those women who seemed to bounce back because of a stellar gene pool, there is still a shift in body. Your body is never the same after a baby.
This is why I love the celebration of REAL bodies. I love these photos of real women’s bodies after baby and this post with photos of real, athletic derby women with their muscles and also their cellulite and their scars.
I feel so much closer to where I want to be in my skin. I am trying not to hate the things that I cannot change—the scars and the saggy skin left behind from babies. Some of these things NOTHING will change. Nothing. I am coming to terms with this. I am learning to find what healthy feels like to me. I am learning to appreciate the beauty in my body for what it can DO rather than simply what it looks like. I can carry two little girls at once and give piggy back rides and dance stupidly and play soccer with my boys and climb trees and feed a nursing baby and run and knock people down playing roller derby and jump on a trampoline (though I WILL pee my pants). My body may not look the same, but it can DO so much.
I have a few more weeks left on Nutrisystem and then I will be working on an exit strategy to make sure I continue to strive until I get to that point of what feels healthy to me. I’ve got some jeans in the closet I can’t WAIT to put on.
As a member of the Nutrisystem Nation Blogger Program, I am receiving free membership to the program in exchange for blog posts. All opinions are (as always) still my own! Thanks to Nutrisystem for the opportunity!